Being a Girl

Today is the first day that I do not have to work at either job at all in a very very long time. I should be enjoying today, having fun, relaxing, and getting things done. Unforunately, I had a mild breakdown last night (good thing Daniel was there), and I'm still feeling the discouraging after effects of it today. The story behind my frustration? My dream, since I was a wee tike, is to be a photographer/artist/massage therapist/dancer. High stakes, right? Well... thinking about how I am going to achieve my goal, I figure I should start with the basics. Get my massage therapy license. Then I can use the money I make from being a massage therapist to put me through school to get a Bachelors. Major in Art. Minor in Dance. And tada! Dream come true! Unforunately, this first step is proving harder than anticipated. Massage Therapy school is 12,000 dollars. Ouch. So while trying to convince my parents that this is a legit life course and absolutely what I want to do, and trying to figure out desperately how to pull together that much, I have gotten myself into a slump. Life goals slipping away because of green paper. How pathetic.
So! With that precurser, this morning I awoke, I am embarassed to admit, a little depressed. And I remembered once a very good friend telling me, if I ever felt down there is a list of things I could go through to do to make myself feel better.

1 . Clean/organize something
2. Read a good book
3. Get your favorite drink. (her scenario dr. pepper, mine, the beloved diet coke or green tea, i can't decide which i love more)
4. Listen to your favorite band.
5. Get something fun and cheap. aka: new mascara, , new lotion, new perfume, a cheap new ring, a super cheap new shirt.... you get the idea
6. Paint your toenails.
7. Stretch. (i do yoga, but it amounts to the same)
8. Relax. (to be tied into yoga, i just love it)
9. Make yourself up. Do your hair extra cute, etc.
10. Dye your hair.

And I have my own thing to add to the list... 11. Help someone out.

To say the very least, I did this whole list. I cleaned and vaccumed my car. Finished reading Eclipse this morning. Blasted some fabulous Incubus on the way to the store to buy new moisturizer, hair dye and diet coke. Painted my toenails bright red, did some yoga and made myself up extra cute. As for number eleven, I helped my mom with some errands and made dinner for my family tonight. And strangely enough, I do feel better. The joys of being a girl...